A distant memory of love.
It seems so far out of reach when he could blindly give his love and devotion to the one that was worthy. How he wish he still could live in those moments, but where did it all shatter? When? His memories seemingly clear, yet vague. He clearly remembers the moment when his world shattered, but when did it happen? This was one of many details plaguing his mind.
He can still want to love, still able to give his unique brand of gentle, cute and selfless kindness to all. But a rogue thought keeps him recoiling at the smallest, faintest of hints of love. Unable to distinguish between friendly or true love, this fear terrifies him. He knows the reason for this developed fear - he wishes to never be hurt again. For it was the one who he trusted the most, the one he finally believed in, had faith in, someone truly special. At the time, she was his Goddess, now she represents something else. A reminder, a symbol, the horror.
Before and since then, friends and family alike doted on him as usual. Wishing for nothing but blessings for him, and grateful for his selflessness and kindness. Their attempts to help him find love since, always brought out his fear. His warm yet strangely fluffy aura would suddenly become this cold darkness which shone brightly, bearing his kind smile though feigned; as if trying to hide his fear. Rarely was it questioned by a friend, and it was answered honestly, and painfully - complete with his gentle smile, followed by a dark, unreadable expression. When questioned by family, he remained tight-lipped, and never breathed a word, let alone a sound of what it may be.
Now here he sits; cradling himself, facing his reflection as hot water poured down from above. His vision dark and cracked, registering his environs, yet was elsewhere entirely. His eyes open wide yet eerily empty, absent of his warmth, of life. To his horror, or was it relief; his wide smile could not be more twisted... or honest.
A loud laugh echoed off the tiles, it's sound filled with glee and honesty escaping into the night, haunting all who heard it.